Title: No Turning Back
Author: Sairalinde
Type: SLASH Fan Fic
Pairing: Viggo/Sean B.
Rating: Explicit Sex
WARNING: Language
Beta: Glorfindel
Disclaimer: This never happened…this is total fiction…Viggo, Sean, and Orlando are all real people but I make no claims on them. This was written in fun that's all. None of it is real.
Feedback: Yes please send to sairalinde@hornofgondor.com
Archiving: Yes but ask first please.
Summary/Notes: Sean has a dilemma…Viggo helps him through it.

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[Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5] [Chapter 6] [Chapter 7 ]

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Chapter 4

The hobbits and the elf are nuts. I am convinced of this now. They are all up on the little makeshift stage in the pub singing karaoke and Viggo, Ian, Karl, and myself are nearly pissing our selves laughing.

It's been six weeks now since that night…and no one knows or even suspects that Viggo and I are involved. Ian has asked me if I have talked to Viggo about my "infatuation" and I keep telling him no, though each time he asks I nearly want to laugh. I don't know how long I can keep hiding how I feel about Viggo though. We are together all the time both in social situations and alone…it's the time alone when it's the easiest because we can just BE with each other, but nights like this it's so damn hard to hide what's really going on.

Viggo has admitted he feels the same way. We talked about it a few days ago and we are both nearly ready to just say fuck it and tell everyone anyway. Then again we are doing such a good job of hiding it. I have also realized something else in the last six weeks…what I feel for Viggo is more than just attraction or lust. I am not quite sure if it's love…because even before the physical attraction slipped in I loved him as a friend. I have never become lovers with one of my best mates before so I am not quite sure where that line is between friendship and something more…or even if there ever was one with Viggo.

I look across the table and see Viggo smiling at me. That look in his eyes I know is meant for me alone to see. I glance over at Ian quickly and then back to Viggo. He gets the message and averts his gaze back to the screeching hobbits and elf. Christ those boys need vocal lessons.

I feel a hand on my thigh under the table…I know it's Viggo's. He's had a few too many drinks tonight I think, but he's still not technically drunk. The falling down hobbits…yeah they are technically wasted.

Oh bloody hell he moved his hand up higher! Normally I wouldn't mind that but I know I am not that good of an actor to hide him touching me like this. I reach under the table and squeeze his hand and then move it.

He gives my hand a squeeze and then he leans over and says, "Sean I think I have had a few too many tonight…you mind giving me a ride home?"

I laugh, God even tipsy he manages to keep up the act. "Sure." I say lightly.

We excuse ourselves from our friends and make our way out to my car. Viggo slides into the passenger seat and sits back closing his eyes.

"I don't know how long I can do this, Sean." Viggo's voice echoes the frustration I am feeling as well.

"I know Vig…I know." I say starting the car. "If we don't go out with our friends though they are going to suspect something…but when we do, it makes us both crazy. Especially the way the hobbits and that damn elf are always all over each other."

When we arrive at Viggo's I help him inside and help him get into bed. It's taking every ounce of willpower I have seeing him in nothing but his boxes laying there on his bed not to just pounce on him. I manage to get him tucked in.

"Christ Sean I haven't been tucked in since I was a kid." Viggo says laughing. "I am not that drunk ya know?"

I laugh too. "I know but you look really tired. Goodnight Vig." I say kissing his forehead lightly. As I turn to walk away he catches my hand in his and squeezes.

"Why don't you stay?" He asks. I don't turn around.

"Please Sean…stay…just sleep here with me tonight." He says softly.

"Vig I would love to but..." I begin but he cuts me off.

"Sean, stay with me tonight." Viggo says in a pleading voice that makes me want to melt.

"Are you sure? Vig don't you remember you have an elf staying here for a few days?" I ask reminding Viggo that one of Orlando's pipe's burst in his kitchen while he was gone for a few days last week.

He was complaining in the trailer the other morning about the hotel he was staying in, and Viggo being Viggo pipes up and says, "You can stay in my guestroom, I don't have any use for it with Henry not here right now." I nearly choked on my tea of course. Its true Viggo doesn't use the guestroom when Henry isn't here…and I certainly don't sleep in it anymore. Not since that night…I have used the guestroom before then though. I know Orli could use a place to stay but then it's going to make things even more difficult for us to hide our relationship. Viggo sits up in the bed and looks at me for a moment.

"Maybe we should tell Orli...I mean hell we share a trailer with him we may as well let him in on our relationship, that way we don't have to be on egg shells constantly. This is driving me nuts, Sean." Viggo says and then stares at me waiting for me to say something. I stand there staring back at him for what seems an awfully long time thinking about his words and then I smile. "Ok...when do we tell him?" I am actually very relived. I know it was my idea to hide our relationship but I no longer care as much anymore.

Last week I nearly killed myself when Viggo and I had a quick snog while Orli and the makeup artists were out. When Orli opened the door we jumped back from each other so fast I lost my balance and nearly fell over.

If Viggo hadn't grabbed me by Boromir's leather vest I would have fell flat of my arse. Orli gave us the strangest look but we played it off well, at least we think we did. Would have been awkward to have to explain what was going on right before going out to film.

"So come to bed Sean." Viggo says smiling tiredly.

He certainly doesn't have to ask me again. I strip down to my boxers and turn off the lights then slide in beside Viggo. We kiss each other and curl up together, this just feels so right. I am still not used to it yet, I still am not sure what it means now. Am I gay now...or bisexual, or just Viggosexual?

All I know is I would love to slide down further and take Viggo into my mouth but I know he's exhausted so I won't. Viggo only went out tonight because he felt we had to...the whole keeping up appearances thing so no one gets suspicious. He has been killing himself all week. He dives into his work so much...I mean sure I do too but nothing like Viggo. I knew he was pretty far-gone when before we went out tonight he fell asleep on the couch while I was in the shower. Normally he would have crawled in there with me.

I smile at that thought and finally drift off to sleep.

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