Here With Me Chapter 13
Title: Here With Me 13/?
Author: Anorien and Sairalinde
Type: RPS
Pairing: Craig/David
Rating: NC-17
Beta: Ourselves
Warning: Abuse described in later chapters not between the main pairing.
Disclaimer: This never happened. This was written in fun that's all.
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Summary: A.U. Two University Professors try to overcome their pasts and find love and healing.

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David walked across the room and settled down on the floor behind Craig wrapping his arms around him and rubbing his chin against the soft dark blue terrycloth. Kissing Craig's cheek he grinned. "Hello, love." The afternoon had been perfect after they left the bookstore. They had gone for a long walk, looking at the changing leaves and had a picnic in the park. He couldn't remember feeling so relaxed after a publicity event before. Now he was just happy to be in front of the fire again with his lover. The poem he had read that day had said everything he wanted to say to Craig...and he wished he could give Craig even more. Though now he had more hope now than ever that he would one day be able to let go of his past.

"Hello yourself," Craig smiled, leaning back into David's arms. "Hmm….feels nice. Sitting here in front of the fire with the man I love….what a way to spend an evening." He gazed into the fire, remembering the last poem David had read to the crowd. The poem that he'd written for Craig. And the look in David's eyes as he'd read it - that look said even more than the words he'd recited. "I loved hearing you today," he said softly. "Everything you read was just……incredible. I loved them all. Especially that last one. Sorry I embarrassed you and ran up on the stage like that. I just……got caught up in the moment, I guess." Blushing, Craig turned to look at his lover. "But it really was the most beautiful thing I've ever heard."

David smiled, knowing his blush matched his lover's. I'm glad you liked it...I wasn't sure if I should read that one, but when I saw it and then looked up and saw you...I had to. I didn't read that one for them you know...I read it for you and every word I wrote, I mean with all my heart. I love you, Craig. I'm beginning to think I have loved you since before I even met you," he said softly running the back of his hand down his lover's cheek. "I've never enjoyed doing these things, but having you here with me, it has been wonderful."

Leaning in to his lover's touch, Craig sighed and closed his eyes. "It *has* been wonderful, hasn't it? he said softly. "Being with each other, laughing, cuddling, making love, reading poetry… loving each other." He leaned over to place a soft kiss on his lover's lips. "I love you." Turning in David's arms, Craig looked into the beloved blue eyes. "You do know that, don't you?"

"Yes, I think that I do," David said seriously. "I have a lot of baggage from my past, Craig, that is weighing me down, but each day I'm with you those things hurt less and fade more. I love you, and I believe you do love me...but I worry that one day I'll wake up and find this has all been a dream. One day maybe that will go away...I'd like to believe it will last, but nothing ever has before...do you understand that? Why I'm scared?" David asked searching Craig's eyes for a moment and seeing nothing but love reflecting in them.

"Oh, sweetheart," Craig said softly, "I understand. But I'm not going away. And you'll see that one day. In fifty years, when we're old and gray and I'm still groping you and making love with you every night, you'll look back on this and wonder how you ever even doubted my love." He smiled softly and ran his fingers through his lover's hair. "*We* will last. The only way I'll leave is if you ask me to, and even then it won't be easy." Turning to stare back into the fire, Craig leaned back into his lover's embrace again. "You have no idea how much I wish we'd met years ago, and I could have saved you from all you've been through."

"I wish I'd met you years ago too," David said smiling and wrapping his arm a little tighter around Craig. "I've never met anyone like you Craig. Never. You are kind, generous, loving, compassionate, romantic, and utterly beautiful. I had no choice but to fall in love with you," he said, smiling happily. It was all true, every word. He had no choice, his heart was gone before he could even think about it.

Smiling softly, Craig sank back into his lover's arms. "It's not like I had a choice either. When you looked up at me with those incredible blue eyes of yours, I was hooked." He ran his hands over David's arms, which were still wrapped securely around him. "I've never even really held anyone before you - or wanted to be held. I've never been close to anyone. Anyone at all. But this……you and I…….this feels so right."

"I've always wanted this and never received it," David began and trailed off for a moment. "It does feel right, *we* feel right together." // And I pray that we always will be. God I have never been so happy and I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, and Craig just walk away...or...over time I drive him to be like them.//

Craig pulled away and reached over to grab a pillow from the chair beside the fireplace. Gently urging David to lie down, he tucked the pillow underneath his head, and lay down beside him. He propped his head on his hand and regarded his lover with a smile. Craig's other hand gently trailed over David's his face, down his neck, and across the exposed skin of his chest where his robe fell open. "I'm going to devote the rest of my life to making you happy, and holding you and loving you forever," he whispered softly. "You'll see. We'll get through everything else. Just trust in me…..as much as you can. That's all I'm asking for right now."

David smiled as Craig spoke, his hand trailing over him...the simplest of touches making him feel treasured. "I do trust you...with my heart...and with my life," David whispered. Shifting slightly so that he could gaze at his lover he ran his hand down Craig's arm. "So can I count you in on any of these other publicity events that my publisher asks me to do? I'd really like you to be with me at them. It calmed me more than you realize today. Just feeling you near me was enough to help calm my nerves," he explained. He had always been tense going into those, but after the last one...he'd been too frightened to do another till now.

"Always," Craig said softly, absolutely no hesitation in his voice. "Do you want to tell me what happened last time? I know…..I know Ri…your ex showed up." Craig hesitated, not even able to say Richard's name. "Did he….do, or say, something to you?"

David frowned a bit thinking about it. "No. He showed up and...well I just sort of freaked out, it was more of an intimidation thing. He did that a lot, I knew the looks he was giving me. I knew how to read the body language...and I was a stumbling moron after seeing him there. So I told the store owner I was sick and left immediately. I was so embarrassed about that and my publisher was none too pleased with me either...but I couldn't stay. I knew if I did...he'd want to talk to me and talking with him was never *just* talking," David said staring at the ceiling unable to look at Craig.

Craig's teeth clenched, and he closed his eyes, wishing that he could get his hands on Richard for just a few minutes. That's all it would take…Just to let Richard know a little bit of how he'd made David feel for all those years. Craig had never in his life hit someone, but he was sure that he'd have no problem whatsoever beating the hell out of the bastard who put such fear into David's eyes. He took a deep breath, trying not to let his anger at Richard show. Gently putting his fingers under his lover's chin, Craig tilted David's head until their gazed locked. "I truly don't understand how anyone could ever want to hurt you," he said softly. "But you will never, ever be hurt again." Sliding his arm between David's head and the pillow, Craig pulled his lover close, holding him tightly. "I love you," he whispered.

"I love you too," David whispered in return laying his hands on Craig's arms around him. "I know you won't hurt me," David whispered softly. He was certain that Craig was not the type to do what Richard had, that much he was sure of. Feeling safe and comfortable in his lover's arms David smiled and took a deep breath. Ever since he'd met Craig he'd felt safe with him...and now more than ever.

Craig's fingers trailed lightly over David's skin, feeling him relax in his arms. "Of course," he grinned, "I might just kiss you to death. But that's not really going to hurt, is it?" Leaning down, he pressed his lips to his lover's, then trailed soft kisses all over his face and neck. "Not a bad problem to have, as far as I'm concerned…."

David began to laugh. "I think I can live with that kind of problem...matter of fact," he said trailing off as Craig kissed his lips softly then pulled away again, "matter of fact I know I can live with that." Sighing softly he gazed into Craig's eyes, "You know we still have one more day here. What would you like to do tomorrow before we drive back? Anything...you name it," David said smiling.

Craig nibbled on David's ear for a moment before answering. "As long as I'm with you, I don't care what we do. I don't even know the first thing about this town. What did you do when you came here before?" His head drifted back down to continue his task as he waited for David to answer, smiling at the soft sighs and shivers his actions brought forth.

David shifted a bit smiling the entire time as Craig teased him. "Well...um last time I was alone so I mostly stayed in my room...though I did end up going to the flea market here. Everyone talks about it and I went and just enjoyed walking around looking at everything. I bought some bookends at one of the stalls," he said though his sentence slightly broken from the feel of Craig's mouth still making him crazy.

"Hmmm," Craig said, smiling. He leaned up to grin at his lover, letting his fingertips take over where his lips left off. "That sounds like fun. Care to give that a try again? I love flea markets. Haven't been to one in years though. And I've love to just spend the day relaxing and having fun. Plus, this way, I get to let everyone see how lucky I am - let them see that I've somehow managed to catch the most handsome, wonderful, sexiest man in the world to care about me."

David felt his face flush at Craig's words and laughed softly. "Great...it's a date then...and I think they will see that I'm the lucky one. No one has ever made me feel like you do," he whispered pulling Craig down for a gentle kiss. "So...we have tomorrow planned...well a little of it...what about tonight?" he asked between kisses to soft perfect lips.

Craig's eyes fell shut as each kiss became deeper and more passionate. "Anything you like," he whispered softly. His hands trailed underneath his lover's robe, and slid underneath his back, pulling him even closer. "As long as it doesn't require you from being anywhere but in my arms."

"Hmmm, that sounds really good. Your arms around me, your lips against mine, your hands upon my body and mine upon yours, our skin touching...our hearts mingling as one, as our shadows and souls merge..." he whispered softly his hand trailing down Craig's chest, pushing his robe open, and exposing the smooth skin to the firelight.

Craig smiled, feeling his body reacting immediately to his lover's touch in a way that he'd never thought possible. "So beautiful," he said softly, lowering his lips to meet David's, his words murmured into the warmth of his lover's mouth. "You, your words, your smile, your body…..everything about you is so beautiful, so perfect…." His words trailed off as he gently pushed his tongue forward, seeking his lover's, caressing and tasting, giving and receiving.

David tangled his hands in dark hair as their kiss deepened, feeling as if his heart might beat out of his chest. Drawing back he smiled, staring into sparkling blue eyes, "I love you," he murmured as he leaned forward to kiss and lick a trail down Craig's chest. "Love me, Craig...please. I want you, need you," he whispered as his hand found his lover's arousal under the soft dark material, stroking and teasing the hard length.

Craig's body shivered with desire at his lover's words. "I love you too, David," he whispered, already feeling his arousal beginning to throb as his hips shifted forward automatically, thrusting into his lover's firm grasp. His hand moved down to untie the belt holding David's robe closed, and the seeking fingers immediately found their prize. His thumb rubbed over the head of his lover's arousal, slowly spreading the thick drops of fluid that were beginning to leak from the tip. Leaning down to suck gently on the warm skin of David's neck, Craig slowly slid between his, hands entwining and hard arousals rubbing against each other as he brought his lips back for a deep kiss.

Spreading his legs as Craig settled between them and gasping as their arousals rubbed against each other, David closed his eyes and lost himself in his lover's kiss. It felt as if they were the only two people on the planet as he felt their bodies move together. // Please never stop loving me. Please love me forever just as I will you. // Sliding his hands up and down his lover's back he broke the kiss gasping for air. "I need you so much, Craig. Please mo chroí," he murmured feeling as if he might explode just from his lover's skin touching his own.

Craig pulled away only long enough to realize the lube was on the other side of the room, on the nightstand. He looked for a substitute and smiled when he saw the oil lamp sitting by the hearth. Pulling away reluctantly, he grabbed the lamp and quickly twisted the globe off, dipping his fingers into the warm oil. Desperate for his lover's touch again, he leaned forward and kissed him deeply as his slick fingers ran over David's entrance, coating it thoroughly, then sliding one finger in, moaning as he rubbed his cock against his lover's thigh. "You are *everything* to me, David," he whispered, gently moving his finger in a slow circle. "Absolutely everything."

Pressing his hips down against the slick finger delving gently inside him David moaned softly. "You are everything to me too, love," he whispered softly as Craig gently prepared him. Always making him feel so loved, and cherished. Staring into his lover's eyes he hoped that Craig saw the love revealed in his eyes, hoping he saw what David felt for him. "Please hurry, love. I want you so much...need to feel you inside me," he whispered. Never feeling as if he was on fire before, his entire body longed for Craig's touch, everywhere, all at once.

Craig nodded, unable to speak as he lost himself in David's gaze, his hips unconsciously rubbing against the body of this incredible man he was so in love with. Adding a second finger, he gently scissored them and worked the tight muscle, wanting nothing more than to be buried inside his lover, yet unwilling to hurt him for even an instant. As David opened up underneath his touch, Craig gave him a final kiss and withdrew his fingers, lining his arousal up, and pressing slowly forward. The room seemed suddenly too warm, and his body felt flushed and damp with sweat as he sank into his lover, stopping only when he was buried to the hilt. He paused, giving them both time to adjust, as he rested his head on David's shoulder, breathing heavily.

Whimpering softly as the fingers withdrew, David moaned as Craig's thick cock slowly entered him, filling him to completion. Lifting his hips to meet his lover as he moved into him he wrapped his arms around Craig as he paused. As the slow thrusts began, David wrapped his legs around his lover, coaxing him to move faster, desperately wanting, needing more. He had never felt this sort of driving need to be taken this way before, not like this. He wanted to give himself completely to Craig...everything...anything he wanted. All of his body and soul.

Moving slowly and deeply inside of his lover, Craig found that he couldn't drag his eyes away. Shifting slightly to change the angle, he thrust in even deeper, the tip of his cock brushing across David's sweet spot. Unable to resist, Craig leaned down, pressing his lips to his lover's with each thrust, the kisses growing deeper each time he hit the small bundle of nerves, causing David to arch up into him.

Wrapping his arms and legs around his lover, David smiled into the sweet kisses. As each long slow deep thrust rubbed against his prostate he moaned arching his hips wanting more and more. "I love you...God I love you, Craig," he moaned thrusting his hips upwards to meet his lover's downward thrusts. Feeling as if he was about to lose control he threw his head back. "I'm so close already," he whispered. Craig hadn't even touched his aching cock but he was so close to the edge already.

Craig rested his weight on one hand and arched his back, reaching for the leaking arousal that lay trapped between their bodies. He could already feel the dampness on his own stomach from David's arousal, and he somehow got even harder, his thrusts speeding up and delving even deeper. "Oh, God," Craig moaned brokenly. "Come with me, please, love." With a low moan, Craig gave a final hard thrust and spilled deep within his lover's body, his own fist continuing to stroke David's arousal as his body trembled with the aftershocks of his orgasm.

As Craig's thrusts sped up David cried out, arching upwards his hands falling to the floor and twisting in his robe spread out under him. Hearing Craig's words followed by the feel of his release pulsing inside of him, he cried out again, trembling as his own release spilled over his lover's fingers and his own stomach. "Oh God, Craig!" he gasped, reaching up to pull his lover down for a deep kiss. Showing him with a kiss how much he loved him, still unable to stop moving his hips as his muscles milked his lover's cock still buried deep within him.

Craig lowered his body onto David's, deepening the kiss as he moaned into his lover's mouth. His whole body trembled as David's muscles clenched around him, draining him of every last drop of his seed. The kiss turned from tender to passionate, and Craig felt completely surrounded by David's love. Sliding his arms underneath his lover, he held him tight, unwilling to let him go even long enough to reach for something to clean themselves with. He buried his face in David's neck and licked at the damp, salty skin, feeling the warmth of his lover's release quickly cooling between their bodies. "I am so in love with you," he said softly.

"Agus Tá mé thar a bheith i ngrá leat, mo hálainn ghrá," David whispered shakily and then realized Craig didn't understand a word of that. "And I am so in love with you my beautiful love," he whispered softly as he wrapped his arms around his lover and held him close. Turning slightly he kissed Craig's forehead softly. "You have no idea what you do to me...I told you before that I never really enjoyed sex before you...and now, I just can't get enough of you," he said smiling then laughing softly. "I'm hoping that's a very good thing."

Craig smiled, feeling himself slowly relaxing into his lover's embrace. "I'm hoping it's a very good thing too," he whispered, still trying to catch his breath. "Because I can't get enough of you either." He shifted slightly, sliding from his lover's body and settling down beside him, holding him tightly and knowing that he never, ever wanted to let him go.

David smiled happily as Craig held him and reached for the towel he used to dry his hair earlier, and began gently cleaning Craig's stomach and hand then himself. Looking up at Craig, he realized it was normally Craig who tended to him. He smiled again and kissed him softly "I don't know how I make it through classes anymore I spend so much time thinking about you...do you know I doodled your name across a students paper last week? I was so embarrassed I told the student I had lost it so I was gona give them an A because I couldn't bring myself to give it back to them," David said laughing softly at himself. "You have completely ruined me you know? In the best way possible."

Craig grinned and leaned down to place a soft kiss to the corners of David's lips. "You did that, huh?" he asked, laughing softly. "Well, remind me to show you my anatomy book where I drew all your freckles. And you know what? I'm glad I ruined you. I don't ever even want to think of you wanting anyone but me." Leaning up on one arm to stare down at his lover, Craig smiled. "I know you may not be ready to believe it yet, but I want us to be forever. I'm in love with you, and that's never going to change."

"I hope so, I honestly hope so, Craig. I love you more than life itself," he whispered. "Just be patient with me...I'm sorry that you fell in love with someone with so much baggage, but I couldn't give you up for anything....anything. I love you so much," he said softly staring into his lover's beautiful blue eyes.

"You, my love," Craig whispered softly, "are stuck with me. It would break my heart if you ever asked me to leave, so please, don't even think about ever giving me up. I'll wait for you as long as you need me to. Because I know without a doubt that one day you'll realize how much I love you."

David smiled and took a deep breath "I will never ask you to leave...ever," David whispered pulling Craig close. "Want to sleep right here in front of the fire? Snuggled up in each other's arms?" David asked with a grin.

"Anything that involves your arms around me and my arms around you sounds like Heaven," Craig said softly, snuggling closer, their bodies fitting together perfectly. "Rest, sweetheart," he whispered, placing a soft kiss on his lover's temple. "And remember that I love you more than anything."

Closing his eyes a soft smile on his lips David whispered, "I will." Feeling sleep overtake him he curled his arms reflexively around Craig and snuggled closer to his warmth. Safe in the arms of the man who dominated his thoughts, and ruled his heart.

Staring into the fire, Craig felt his lover slowly relax against him. His arms held onto David tightly, wanting him to feel safe and happy and loved. His eyes grew heavy as his breathing matched his lover's and he drifted toward sleep, still asking himself how he'd managed to live so long without this man in his arms. Smiling softly, he fell into a deep sleep, dreaming of his future with the man he loved.

TBC